Krazy KT

Will you vote for me?!? :-)

Wendy sent me a link asking me to vote for her in this photo contest.. so of course I did. You can check out her pictures and vote HERE. While there I saw they had a pet photo contest going on so I figured I'd give it a go. So if you have a minute and could vote for my oh so adorable pup Chopper.. I'd be forever grateful!!!!!!!! :-) It ends in 8 days... HERE IT IS!!!!!

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I have several photos in different categories .. please check them out and vote if you want. You can view them all HERE. Also, my bestest gal pal Mandy has some on there. Check them out too while your there HERE! Thanks!!

Anger..

The sites coming along slowly, I'm almost done with Creative Imaginations. I have a long way to go since it's so screwed up. I'm back to plugging away at it. I just have lots and lots of bad days where I don't get much done, if anything. I'm embarrassed to say it's been a year since the sites been up and running correctly so I am trying to stay motivated. It's just hard. I miss my Dad so much.. it still doesn't seem real and I just want him back. I have a lot of anger .. that seems to be a big problem for me these days.. I'm struggling with that too. I'm angry at life.. angry at god.. furious with my sister.. the anger I feel towards her is worse then I've ever felt before... I'm angry at the jerks whose shop my father was at when he fell.. angry at myself for not being able to function .. angry that I'm not able to get it together and do what would make my dad proud.. I've been crying a lot .. it just doesn't seem real and the littlest thing sets me off and the tears start pouring.. So that's what going on with me these days not much progress. I'm trying but most days are more of a struggle than others.

I'll leave you wish some photos of the pups and everyone hanging out by the pool..

I just get overwhelmed if I worry about back bloggin.. so I decided to take it day by day and go from here. I'll post about the past month or so a little at a time in my posts.

Dad's Guest book..

I finally wrote in my Dad's guest book HERE. I wanted to post it on my blog too though..

Three and a half months it's been.. I still feel like it's not real. I try so hard to move forward, but I can't. I still wait for him.. I could never express the pain I truly feel of not having my Father here with me today. It's just not fair. I will never have my Father walk me down the isle on my wedding day or have my dance with him to butterfly kisses. He will never get to hold my child one day .. he will never get to walk through the garage door and say "I love you baby girl." I will never understand why this has happended and certainly will never understand it.

All I keep hearing from everyone is it will get easier with time. Well I'm finding everyday harder then the one before most of the time. The past couple months have just been one first after another without him .. Easter.. my parents anniversary April 30.. My Dad's birthday May 5.. My Moms birthday May 17.. Jeremys Birthday May 18.. Mothers day.. Fathers Day.. It's just not fare.

I have come to this guest book to write at least 20 times but can never bring myself to do it. I guess I just don't want to admit it's real. I guess I figured if I wrote here it would be official.. he would really be gone. No matter what though the loss of my Daddy at this point in my life will never seem real. It can't be right?

I saw him just 20 mins. before we got the call .. he said i'm goin up to the shop for a bit and I'll be back. I gave him a hug and a kiss.. said "bye .. I love you.. be careful." I haven't been able to hug him or give him a kiss or tell him I love him since..........

I just want my Daddy back.

Lots of good deal on ebay!!

I have so much to tell you all.. good and bad I don't even know where to begin. I am hoping to work on blogging tonight or tomorrow night. In the meantime I just wanted to let you know I've got lots of clear stamp sets and idea books listed on ebay again that are ending today. I just keep re-listing so make sure you keep checking back. I'm starting to sell out of a lot of the stuff, so of course I won't be re-listing it once it's gone. I'm also going to work on listing more new items here and there. It takes some time to actually list the stuff the first time around so it's a process, but after that I just have to keep hitting re-list until I'm sold out of it all! So check it out and see if there's anything you might be interested in. All I have to say is thank goodness for ebay! It's been helping me pay most of my bills, even if it's little by little, while I work on getting the store images fixed so I can get it back up. Check out my auctions HERE and make sure you keep checking back!

I promise to update about the past month very soon. It's been full of lots of ups and downs.. mainly downs but I just keep telling myself take it one day at a time. And I wanted to thank all of you that let me know you've been thinking about me, especially on Father's Day.

And what's a blog post without a picture?!? So I'll leave you with these! This little cutie is Maddy. My mom and I have been watching her for a couple weeks now 2-3 times a week. She is just the sweetest thing! (Please excuse the crusy boogies in some of the pictures.. lol)