LONG overdue on bloggin!! I'm sorry that it's taken me so long! I know, I'm a week past when I said I'd draw a winner for the Creative Imaginations RAK. It's been tough for me the past 2 weeks. I haven't been doing too good. I'm up and down all day long. I spent all last week busting my butt getting everything in order for the scrapbook sale, with the exception of the day or two I spent not doing much of anything but laying on the couch. As hard as I tried to get going .. I just couldn't. I hadn't been the the store since my Dad had his accident and it wasn't something I was looking forward to doing. I went there twice and attempted to go in but once I unlocked and opened the door, and looked in I was flooded with tears and quickly got back in my car and left. There's not one thing in there that doesn't remind me of my Father. I ended up just going to the store and grabbing boxes of stuff quickly for the sale on Thursday, not even knowing what was in some of them to take home to price. I was cramming the boxes in the back of the truck. I had one left that I was trying to get in there but there was something tossed in the back of the truck and I couldn't get it to move. I know this is going to sound insane, but I'm going to say it anyway. I was getting ready to really loose it. I was already already crying and starting to have a panic attack because I just wanted to get out of there. I gave the box one last push and nothing I put my arms down to my side and turned around to lean against the tailgate of the truck and there was my Dad. He smiled at me leaned over me and pushed in the box, as I watched him. He stepped back when he was done. I looked at him and looked at the box and looked back at him and he was gone. I can't even begin to tell you the chills that ran down my body. The hair on arms popped right up, along with goosebumps and this rush of emotion. I slammed the tail gate closed and the cap lid, turned around and closed the store door, locked it and jumped in the truck. I still get chills just thinking of it.
Monday, of last week I was laying on the couch, just curled up with a blanket staring at the TV, it wasn't on. I seem to be spending a lot of my time doing that these days. I heard someone walking up the garage steps in what sounded like my Dad's Harley Davidson biker boots and open the door to the laundry room. I thought that can't be possible, he was buried in those boots. Then they grabbed the handle to the door that leads in the kitchen. I was wondering who that could be since my mom was upstairs, Jeremy was at school and Will wasn't home. I had popped my head up a bit to see who it was, as I heard the door open. As it slowly crept open and I glanced over to see who it was, I could see a man walking in through the door. I quickly sat up in complete amazement as my heart skipped a beat. It was my Dad. He walked right through the door, past the bench in the kitchen. I just stared at the floor not knowing what to do or say. I could hear him walking across the hardwood floor with him boots on and open up the bathroom door. The thing that my Mom has hanging on the bathroom door made the clank sound that it always does when someone closes the door and it hits. I sat on the corner of the couch in the fetal position not taking my eyes off the spot between the painting hanging on the wall and the bench below it right next to the door to the laundry room. I didn't know what to say or do, as I felt like my heart had stopped. I managed to get up off the couch and said "Dad?" in a somewhat hopeful voice, as I stepped onto the hardwood floor. I started to have this rush run through me, almost like I was having a panic attack. I walked to the bathroom door, knocked on it lightly and no one responded. It felt like an eternity I was standing there waiting. I slowly grabbed the door knob and turned it, pulling it open. No one was there. My heart sank. I don't know why I was so heartbroken when I opened the door to find no one there. What I was expecting? For my Father to be on the other side I suppose. I sat back on the couch just staring, waiting. I couldn't have been loosing my mind, could I? It felt so real. It was just like my Dad to always come walking through the door with his riding boots on, and my Mom yelling at him to take them off (We don't wear shoes in the house). He'd say "I'm just going from here to the bathroom real quick!" He always thought he was an exception to the rules.
Now that I'm sure you all think I'm insane... The sale went good on Sunday, even though I was up at 5 and got a whole 3 hours of sleep the night before, if that. I had several moments where I just wanted to burst out crying. I quickly said I've got to go to the bathroom and managed to pull myself together. I felt like my Dad was there with me, cheering me on. Thanks so much to Tracy, Meg and Brandon for working the sale and being sooo AWESOME!!! After I subtract the $80 I spent in tubs that I bought to put the stuff in and the $112 for the pricing gun and labels .. I made enough to pay my rent, both electric bills, credit card processing monthly fees, postage scale rental and phone bill!!! WHOOO HOO!! So do I have anything left after all that?!?.. uhhh no.. but at least I made enough to pay my bills this month! Jocelyn, one of the site members even made the drive to check it out! It was so awesome to meet her in person!! Thanks for coming out Jocelyn!! And I almost forgot.. Brandon was such a good sport! The girls were teasing him because he didn't have any Scrap Happy KT gear on, so Tracy gave him her jacket to wear! Which reminds me I have to get him and me one of the black Scrap Happy KT shirts. I'm so jealous all the girls have one and I don't!
Now for what you've been waiting for! The winner of the Creative Imaginations RAK! Oh and before I forget check back tomorrow because I'm doing another RAK! I think I'll be doing a lot of them because, well I love giving stuff away! I've already written the post for the RAK I'm posting tomorrow so make sure you check back then!! ....................................... You've waited long enough for the winner to be announced. I want to thank you all so much for all the input you gave me. I couldn't just have one winner.. so I picked two! Who are the TWO lucky ladies you say?!? .......... Congratulations to......
Amanda Mac and Amy W.
Please email me at [email protected] with CI RAK winner in the title and send me your addy so I can get your goodies out to you!! I'll be doing plenty of RAK's so make sure you keep checking back!!!
