Krazy KT

One of those days..

One of those days where it seems like nothing is going my way.

One of those days where I feel so overwhelmed, I don't know where to begin.

One of those days that I'm REALLY missing my dad.

One of those days where I feel like I can't catch a break.

One of those days I wonder if I'm doing the right thing.

One of those days where I wonder if I'm going to be able to successfully do this again.

One of those days that my mind won't slow down and my body can't catch up.

One of those days that even after a walk and play time, Choppy isn't giving me a break.

One of those days where Princess and Chopper won't stop fighting.

One of those days that I haven't given up, yet I still keep hitting walls.

One of those days I think to myself how much can I really take?

One of those days I just feel so hopeless, but I won't give up.

One of those days I just feel so alone.

One of those days that I think to myself the storm has to end one of these days, right?

One of those days that I just have to keep telling myself.. it's just one of "those" days.

Kt's Back! Kt's Back! Kt's Back!!

I have been anxiously awaiting this day!! I'm excited to announce the Scrap Happy KT is back!!! I sent out my first newsletter yesterday announcing the reopening of the store. In-case you didn't receive it here's what it said... 

We're starting off with a bang; offering 40% off EVERYTHING in the store. I still have 1,000's and 1,000's of products to input into the site. Check back often as I will be increasing my discounted inventory daily.

Please be sure to stop the the message board and idea gallery! I'd love to get the site hoping again. I look forward to seeing your latest creations and hear how you're doing!

I want to thank all of you for your kind words and encouragement over the past 18 months concerning the sudden death of my Dad and my web hosting nightmares.

Any questions or concerns please feel free to leave me a comment on here.

just another day..

  Not a whole lot of interesting stuff going on with me. I've been getting a lot done, but nothing exciting. My store is ready to go up! I'm excited about that! I still keep plugging away at it, TONS of products and companies to add to it still. I just keep telling myself baby steps. I know my Dad would be proud that I've finally got my act together. I don't think he would be too proud of the fact that it's taken me this long though.

Sunday, is my 23rd birthday. Things have been really hard for me lately. I am trying to use my tears as my drive to keep going. I just don't know when I will feel like "me" again though. I am having a really hard time accepting that I won't be able to celebrate my birthday with my whole family. My Dad's never missed my birthday. I keep telling myself over and over that this is real to try and help me understand all of this and accept it but it's just not working. I don't want to do anything special for my birthday, so I'm not. I just want it to be like every other day, and hopefully it won't hurt too bad. I do want to go see the new "Role Models" so I think we might do that. I have wanted to see it since I saw the previews on the last movie we saw in theaters, so I just have an excuse to see it now. Which reminds me.. I canceled the crop I was suppose to be vending at tomorrow. I just haven't been feeling like doing much that involves people and I knew I would be pretty upset so I decided I wasn't going. I mean who wants to deal with a vendor that keeps crying, because I'm sure that's what people would have to deal with.

A couple weeks ago, my Dad's friends Chuck and Karen came over, and Jason. Chuck, Jason and Brandon cleaned out my Dad's shed. I worked on some ATC's and Karen and my mom talked. It is amazing how much crap he crammed in that thing!! I mean how many Folgers cans of nails and screws does one guy need?!?

And my brother even assisted for a little bit!

Art Journal

Obviously it's been longer then a day since I blogged, but I figured what's it matter no one reads this thing anyway... lol.. A couple weeks ago I came across the blog of the AMAZING Rachel Denbow. I've been to her blog plenty of times before but this time was different. She was talking about the art journal class she was offering on etsy through her blog. It was perfect timing because I have been wanting to find a way to express my feelings but scrapbooking just wasn't going to work for me. I figured an art journal would be a place I could unleash my anger and true feelings, but I didn't know where to begin. So, I decided to sign up for Rachel's first art journal class. I LOVED it!! I haven't actually done any of it yet, but I followed along and know that I'll enjoy doing it. I planned on working on it that weekend at the crop I was vending at, but decided last minute that the crop might not be the best place to work on it. I figured I'd get pretty emotional while doing it. I emailed Rachel and told her how much I LOVED the first class and thought it was exactly what I needed to help deal with the loss of my Dad. She sent me the second and third class too! I was and am still so excited! I can't wait to get started on it! If you get a chance be sure to check them out in Rachel's etsy shop!

The next day, I was checking out scrap scene and saw that Dina Wakley was doing an online class at Debbie Hodge's Get it Scrapped Online Classes. I love Dina's work and her art journals are awesome! I decided right away I had to sign up for her Art Journaling 101 Class! I'm in my third week of the class and LOVING every minute of it!! I have actually been following along with the class, which is why I haven't done Rachel's class yet. I can't wait to do Rachel's, but I wanted to be able to really follow along in Dina's class. All i've got to show is some painted Art Journal backgrounds that I posted in my flickr album, not the most exciting thing.. but I'm going to share them anyway since I'm so proud of them.. lol.. and all the texture I did on them with Gesso. You can't really see it too good in photos but here they are anyway..

ATC's

I have been in a weird place lately. I know I need to create, I want to create, but scrapbooking just isn't an option for me. I'd love to do it, but I'm not emotionally there yet. Back in February, when my Dad was in the hospital I signed up for my first Artist Trading Card (ATC) swap. I thought it would be something small I could do while I was at the hospital and figured it would help pass the time. Well about a week or so after I signed up for it, my Dad passed away, so needless to say I didn't think about it again. In May the host emailed me and told me that my cards were late and asked if I planned on doing them still. I told her about my situation and she was very understanding. She told me not to worry about the ATC's if I didn't feel up to them. I thought about it. I really didn't feel like doing them, but I made a commitment so I said I would still do them and would work on them that weekend. Well, doing those cards was so freeing, and felt so good. See creating for me has always been extremely therapeutic and over all effects my mood. I must say I didn't think they were my best work. It was like learning to scrapbook all over again, but they made me feel better.

Fast forward to now.. I have since done 23 ATC swaps and was totally addicted to them. I've even hosted three: favorite photograph, Napoleon Dynamite and a Skull one. I still am doing them, but it's time to move on... so what am I doing now?!? You'll have to check back tomorrow to find out!

October has almost come and gone..

I have had a lot of things going on with me the past week or so.. mostly mentally. I just kind of realized, that my birthday is coming up on the 16th. My birthday has always been a big thing for me. I mean who doesn't love a day all about them?!? I have to say that I'm not looking forward to it though. I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that my Dad won't be there on my 23rd birthday. My Dad has never missed my birthday, ever. My family would always go out to dinner all together and I think that's what always made it so special.

I realized though that I've planned quite a few things for November, so I guess I already knew that I didn't want to deal with facing my birthday without my dad. I usually don't plan much of anything for November since it seems I spend the whole month celebrating with everyone, but I have no plans this year to celebrate it... So I figure this is a good time to tell you about where I'll be in November!

Saturday, November 8th I'll be at the 20th annual Oakland Mills High School PTSA Craft Fair from 10 AM-3 PM. The address is 9410 Kilimanjaro Rd., Columbia, MD 21045. Last year their was approximately 80 crafters that were there! If your free stop by, shop and say hi!

Saturday, November 15th I'll be vending at the Crop for Props Crop in PA. I have to get the address and all that fun stuff from Nikki. She teaches dance at the dance studio that's holding the crop.

I have been pluggin in all the Creative Imaginations quantities. I feel like I'm never going to be done!! I hope to have them all in by the end of this week and the site will be back up next week!

Crop this weekend.. and Life..

Last week I was driving home from my store and I was thinking about life. I said to myself.. "I would give anything to get to see my Dad again and be able to talk to him." It was at that moment that it hit me.. I already have. I have given up EVERYTHING and ANYTHING waiting for my Dad to come back and well... I need to realize that it's not going to happen. As much as I may want to see him and be with him again.. I won't be able to. And certainly living my life like I have been isn't going to bring him back. He would probably be ashamed of what I have become the last 7 months! I guess it's no secret that I am and have been really depressed. Well.. I've had a new attitude that past couple weeks and I'm hoping you'll be able to tell with time to come. I have been wanting to blog for awhile but haven't had a chance to sit down and do it, because I have too much to say. I decided today that I'm not going to let that stop me.. I'll just concentrate on whatever is on my mind when I sit down to blog... sooo that's what I'm doing..

I'm still working on counting Creative Imaginations. Geez.. I knew I had a TON of Creative Imaginations products but I guess I never really realized just how much I had! I was aiming for the counting of Creative Imaginations to be done this week, but things don't always go as planned of course... so I'm shooting for it to be done by the end of next week and doing what I have to at that point to get the store up!! Can you believe it?!? I know, I can't!! I was beginning to feel like I was never not going to see that "Be Back Soon" on my stores homepage!

If your in Maryland and are free this Saturday, October 18th, stop by and see me! I'll be vending at the Kreative Junkets Cropfrom 10 AM - 10 PM at the Best Western in Elkridge, 6755 Dorsey Road, Elkridge, MD (410)-796-3300. You don't have to be a cropper to shop and you can drop in anytime! This will be my 3RD time vending at the crop and I usually have so much fun! Of course there is going to be a costume contest there. I'll be dressed in my costume as well! :-)

I listed some more stamp sets in my etsy store today! Check it out if you get a chance >>>HERE<<< lots of good deals! I'm hoping to put more on there tonight. Well that's it for now I suppose.. Have a Scrap Happy Night!!

I can't post without a photo so.... I figure this is a good time to post a close up of my brothers tattoo. Ann emailed me and asked what was on Will's back and so did a couple other people so here it is.. It says "Failure" real big and under the it says "Is not an option".. my Dad always said that. And under that it has my Dad's signature ... It looks just like it.. it's almost as if he signed Will's back and they tattooed it!

Halloween Party..

Last weekend was Little Ish's 7th Birthday Party. It was a Halloween party! I can't believe he's 7 years old already!! That's crazy!! I had a good time! Brandon and I stopped in the Halloween store before we headed over there because he needed a costume. He decided earlier he wanted to be a vampire, but not your typical Halloween Vampire. He wanted to be a real one.. like on True Blood. We are so addicted to that show! Anyway.. so he just wanted vampire teeth and some face paint to make him pale. Pretty easy right?!? Wrong! He couldn't just get the teeth you pop in and out.. nope he had to get the vampire teeth that go on those two teeth that cost $20. I was going to go as a rag doll again, but I really wanted a new costume. I saw Rainbow Bright and lost it!! I wanted to be her!! Of course they didn't have that costume in my size, so I was a German girl instead.. I forget what the package called me. Everyone said I looked like a St. Pauly's girl though.

Back to Brandon's teeth! So we get to the party and he goes inside to put in his teeth, only to find out they are a bit more involved then he though. Come to find out he had to boil water and mix it with this mix that came with them and practically make a mold of his teeth. Long story short.. he was inside for over and hour and a half before he got them fixed and even then he couldn't keep them in long because the mold wasn't dry. He wasn't suppose to wear them until it was, because then they get stuck on his teeth. So, the party was pretty much over by the time he came out. I didn't get any pictures of him. I had already put my camera in the truck since we were outside and it was pitch dark by the time he came out. I actually didn't take many pictures at all, and the ones I did take are not good at all. For the first time in over a year I put my camera on auto and snapped a couple of pictures. It was getting dark way too fast and I didn't have the patience for fiddling with my camera settings after just 3 photos. I didn't even get a picture of Chopper in his Incredibles costume, which was uhh.. a little too small for him to say the least, so he didn't wear it long.

Kevin was the cutest little dinosaur!!

Savannah was an adorable Lady Bug!

  

And I realized that as much as I like taking pictures.. I hate it when someone wants me to pose for a picture. I actually don't even really like having my picture taken. I'm pretty self consence, and when I look at myself in these pictures they took I can TOTALLY see how unsure of myself I am.

 

  

  

Coming to you LIVE from Scrap happy KT's yard sale..

I'm sitting here.. outside in the garage with TONS & TONS of scrapbook products and let's just say it's not going as planned. I've made about $100 today and it's 12:30.. not what I was hoping for. I just don't know what to do with all this stuff.... Pretty much everything is 50% off and papers 4 for a $1. If your in the mood to go for a ride and want a good deal.. stop by and see me. I'll be sitting out here until 4, but if you come after that I'll be here still (since I live here)..and so will all of the stuff. It just won't be sitting outside but you can call (the numbers in the post below) or just knock on the door and I'll open up the door for you to shop! :-)

I took pictures so I could post them, but I forgot my computer crashed and I'm using my brothers horribly slow computer and uploading the photos isn't quite an option. So I guess while I'm sitting here I'm going to try to post some more stuff in my etsy store, which you can check out >>>HERE<<< if this computer allows me. If not I guess I'll just work on some of my ATC's that I've got to do for swaps I'm in.

Scrap HAPPY!!!!

Edited to Add the photos from the sale!

Scrap Happy Yard Sale!!

I need to just not say I'm going to try to blog more, because every time I do it takes me even longer to blog again. I have so much to say and never know how to say it. Let's start with what's been consuming most of my time lately.. my mom decided to have a yard sale this weekend since quite a few people in the neighborhood are. I've been helping go through stuff for the sale. That's been so tough since most of the stuff packed away in closets was put there by my Dad, not to mention all the little things I'm finding that remind me of him and then usually lead to tears. Since I keep having issue after issue with trying to have a warehouse sale, I decided that I'd try to unload a TON of stuff from the store that I priced and boxes up for the sale. SOOO I'm hoping that maybe some of you will come out and check it out! We are actually doing the yard sale for two days. There's going to be  stuff on Sunday that wasn't there on Saturday too if I get rid of plenty the first day. I promise you won't be disappointed if you come check it out!

Here's the info:

Sat. 10/4 & Sun 10/5 8:00-4:00

2250 Fawn Haven Ct. Eldersburg, MD 21784 (410)-549-7673

Off Liberty Road & Sunset Drive

Lots & Lots of Scrapbooking Supplies, Holiday Decor & Costumes, Game Cube, Clothes, Silk Plants, Housewares.

And I hate to post without any pictures but I'll have to add one later if I can. I took the cutest pics. of the pups yesterday. My computer crashed last night and I am using my brothers lap top to write this, which is so slow!!!! Well I have to call Sony now about my lap top my warranty expires in 7 days, so I guess I'm lucky it crashed when it did.

Oh and on a side note.. any ideas what I could blog about?!? LOL.. It's not like anyone really reads this thing anymore but I feel like most of my blog posts are such downers so any suggestions??? I'd love to do a Q&A but you have to actually have blog readers to do that.. lol

AND if your a local that would like to be added to my local newsletter please leave me a comment on this post. I want to create another newsletter group of locals so I don't have to send newsletters to everyone on my list involving this stuff. Thanks!!!