Not a whole lot of interesting stuff going on with me. I've been getting a lot done, but nothing exciting. My store is ready to go up! I'm excited about that! I still keep plugging away at it, TONS of products and companies to add to it still. I just keep telling myself baby steps. I know my Dad would be proud that I've finally got my act together. I don't think he would be too proud of the fact that it's taken me this long though.
Sunday, is my 23rd birthday. Things have been really hard for me lately. I am trying to use my tears as my drive to keep going. I just don't know when I will feel like "me" again though. I am having a really hard time accepting that I won't be able to celebrate my birthday with my whole family. My Dad's never missed my birthday. I keep telling myself over and over that this is real to try and help me understand all of this and accept it but it's just not working. I don't want to do anything special for my birthday, so I'm not. I just want it to be like every other day, and hopefully it won't hurt too bad. I do want to go see the new "Role Models" so I think we might do that. I have wanted to see it since I saw the previews on the last movie we saw in theaters, so I just have an excuse to see it now. Which reminds me.. I canceled the crop I was suppose to be vending at tomorrow. I just haven't been feeling like doing much that involves people and I knew I would be pretty upset so I decided I wasn't going. I mean who wants to deal with a vendor that keeps crying, because I'm sure that's what people would have to deal with.
A couple weeks ago, my Dad's friends Chuck and Karen came over, and Jason. Chuck, Jason and Brandon cleaned out my Dad's shed. I worked on some ATC's and Karen and my mom talked. It is amazing how much crap he crammed in that thing!! I mean how many Folgers cans of nails and screws does one guy need?!?
And my brother even assisted for a little bit!